It’s been awhile since I did a writing update. For the past few months, I've been slowly revising the draft I finished in November. Revisions have been a bit rough because the first half of my story is in the first person, and the last half is in third person. I started telling the story from the female MC’s point of view, and then I realized that so many things would make no sense unless you could see the male MC’s and secondary character’s point of view as well. This caused my plot to go a bit funky, and suddenly things that were working stopped working and now I have changed three key elements in order to give the plot some semblance of plausibility. Now that those elements have been changed, it means that I’m basically rewriting the whole bleeping thing all over again.
I’m attempting to stay positive about this whole revision/rewriting process because ultimately, I feel like I’m headed in the right direction, but it’s hard. I feel like I’m in the remedial writer’s group because it has taken me what feels like forever to get this far. I know people who have written, revised, and queried two or three books in the time it has taken me to still be working on this one. I’m trying not to feel defeated or discouraged by my progress but when everyone is networking and loving on each other and I’m still trying to organize my plot, it’s hard not to feel like a big fat failure.
Over this last week, I've kind of had a breakthrough. I've written more words and I outlined my new plot from beginning to end and my sweet little story is really starting to come together. After reading through some bits of dialogue, I remembered how much I love my characters and what made me want to write their story in the first place. I've been so worried about finishing this story that I haven’t focused on actually telling it. I have always prided myself on being an excellent storyteller both in written and verbal form so I finally need to learn to just let the story develop and grow without micromanaging every sentence.
Now that I've decided to get out of my emotions and realized that as long as I keep writing and keep progressing that I’m not failing, I feel really energized. I remembered that my word for this year is PERSEVERANCE so I’m not going to quit or allow myself to be discouraged for long. I’m still on a journey and while it is definitely unpredictable, I love every single scary ass second of it.